Im sick and tired of people.

People who make the same mistakes over and over and over again and then expect you to sympathize with them everytime.  I do understand that people  mess up, we're only human, but what i don't understand is why someone would make the same mistake again and again if it hurts them so badly. I try to be there for my friends and be supportive, but you can only do so much. I'm tired of friends coming to me with a problem they created or could have prevented, me trying to help them, and a few weeks later they end up in the same situation. It's like they aren't even listening! When people make mistakes they claim they are "sorry" or feel "guilty", but it gets a little more difficult to believe those things each time something happens again. They say, "I can't help it", or "it just happens" but we all make our own decisions. If they really were sorry for their actions they would pray about it, not just for forgivness or repentence, but also for guidance and protection. That's probably one of the biggest problems I see in Christians today. We say we trust in God, but we never rely on Him. If God can do something as radical as healing the blind, can He not simply direct us from sin and temptation? We should always turn to Him in any situation.

- Stop messing around with your boyfriend/girlfriend
- Stop turning to drugs and alcohol
- Stop indulging in sinful movies, books, etc.
- Stop talking about immoral things.
- Stop putting yourself in situations that can be tempting. (laying in bed with your bf/gf, going to parties you have no business being at)

I'm sick of people who demand improvement yet accept no obligation or responsibility in making changes. If you are going to complain about something, you should do whatever you can to fix it. You say you are sick of gossip and drama but you are creating it in the very same conversation. You can't stop the malicious by joining in.(although this post is filled with my complaints, i have to say that  if i were to stay quiet i would just be neglecting my repsonsibility of speaking out against debauchery and immoral behavior)

- Stop broadcasting everyone's business
- Stop ganging up on people
- Stop thinking you are better than everyone else!
- Stop sitting around and watching all these things happen. GET UP AND SPEAK OUT AGAINST IT!

I'm sick of people with no faith ordetermination. Stick with your commitments! Believe in them and see them through! God has really been dealing with me about this. We can't just give up on something when it isn't going as smoothly as we'd like. This goes back to you responsibility. Take itm upon yourself to improve things. Take pride in what is yours and what you do, and nurture it!

The point of this blog is not to complain. Hopefully, if you read this you will undersatnd that things will never change for you unless you make a genuine effort to make it happen! Life doesn't run on our schedules or plans. If you sit around and just hope for the best you'll probably be disappointed.

its been forever. sorry.

Convention was this weekend. It was amazing! I roomed with Mandi, Brittany, Stacey, and Sally. It was lots of fun! Dane's band played. which was freakin sweet. They're really good. He had like swarms of girls trying to talk to him though. As soon as he got on stage some chick near me goes "Dane, I love you." I shoulda smacked her. lol jk. But seriosuly it was ridiculous. You couldnt walk anywhere without hearing something like "omg Dane is so hot!!!"  and I couldnt walk anywhere with him without being stopped. lol It wasnt just him though. I heaad a lot of girls tlaking about the Weston, drummer too. actually the whole band. it was crazy. lol but anyway. The speaker was really good, Chilly Chilton (im sure i spelled his anme wrong). He was really funny. Oh and of course!!! I got to see most of the Crunk Crew again!! That was great! everyone was there except maggie, jay, and aaron. They were missed. =( .

I got to hang out with Dane all day yesterday! It was great! We didnt really do much of anyting either lol. We hung out at my house for a while then we went to the park and sat by the lake talking for like 3 hours. lol then we just came back here and chilled. it was nice. =) oh except now i have like chiggers or something all over my side. Im not sure if it is chiggers though. It looks like it but it doesnt itch at all. so, idk. it some sort of bite though. gross

No school today. We're out for Thanksgiving. mmmm turkey. =) Cant wait.

well, im bored with this.

<3 Femme

it's  been a few days...

This week we have play rehearsal everyday until 5:30. blehh. I have to work at 5 on thursday, so I'll have to leave early. Im so not taking off work for this dumb play that im not even in. "student director"? please. anyway enough hostility.

I saw Dan in Real Life this weekend. Its really good. Funny. and clean. that's kind of rare these days. anyway, you should see it.

well, i dont have much else to say, but im still bored, so i'll be lame and do a survey. =)

[1.] Where was the first time you ever kissed the last person you kissed?
At a Project 86 concert. hah.

[2.] What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
Hmmm. I was reminded that Friday my college Ebglish class is taking a "field trip" to La Loma. thats exciting, right?

[4.] Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
I'd like to say early, but i do love my sleep.

[5.] Tell me where you got each article of clothing you're wearing?
Shoes- idk dad bought them for christmas.. they're really cute too..suprisingly.
jeans- Abercrombie & Fitch
Tank- The Limited
Sweater- Hollister

[7.] What would you change about your life right now?
my college decision would be made

[8.] Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
ignorance is bliss? lol idk. it just depends on the situation i guess.

[9.] What's on your bedroom floor right now?
Everything.

[10.] Who was the last person you got into an argument with?
I dont remember

[11.] Do you trust people?
yeah, unless they show me that i shouldnt

[12.] If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
spain.

[13.] Do you think you're pretty?
i dont think im ugly.

[14.] Could you go a day without eating?
haha yeha but i wouldnt want to.

15.] How much do looks matter to you?
not entirely too much but i'll be honest, they do matter some. but its okay, I've got the cutest there is!

[16.] How do you feel about PDA?
hold hands. maybe a peck on the cheek. but dont make out in public. ew.

[17.] When was the last time you had your hair cut?
haha i dont even know. is that gross?

[18.] Would you rather be mad or sad?
neither

[19.] Does it take a lot to make you cry?
its kind of weird but i can cry at movies and sad stories or whatever but when its my own situation it usually takes a lot to get me.

[21.] Are you tight with your mom?
you betcha

[23.] Do you tell your parents everything?
not everything. but i dont have anything to hide from them.

[24.] Would you rather be a bird or a fish?
Bird.

[25.] Name one fear you have-
suffocating

[26.] If you need to go to the store a block away, do you walk or drive?
depends on the weather, the traffic, and how lazy im feeling. =) probably walk though

[27.] Does the thought of marriage scare you?
yeha i guess so.

[28.] How many kids do you want?
three or four.

[29.] What's your favorite color to wear?
i lvoe black.

[30.] Who was the last person in your bedroom besides you?
lol dane tried to bust in last night cause i said my room was a mess. i stopped him. =) im a beast. (that's a joke for those of you who dont understand sarcasm)

[31.] What are you doing today?
school, home, back to school for rehearsal, then to church for drama practice, home, ate, xanga, and about to call dane

[34.] What would you do if you found a dinosaur egg?
sit on it and keep it warm in hopes that it would hatch and call me mother. =)

[35.] Do you get bored easily?
o gosh, yesssss

[36.] What's something that someone can do that really bothers you?
sya things in a way to purposely make you look bad or sound dumb.

[37.] Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger?
yeah

[38.] Do you wish you were famous?
ehh, not really.

[40.] When you're at the beach, do you swim or lay out more?
Lay out.

[41.] Who's the last text message you received from and what did it say?
Dane "not funny." lol butthead.

[42.] How do you like your steak cooked?
medium rare

[43.] What's your favorite song at the moment?
Im so obsessed with that Yaweh song from NEEDTOBREATHE lol

[45.] Can music affect your mood?
yeah

[46.] What piercings do you want?
lip. shut up. i want it.

[47.] What tattoos do you want?
like three.

[49.] Ever eaten a bug?
not on purpose.

[50.] Do you think there's someone for everyone?
I sure do.

<3 Femme